The Perks of Not Being Able to Pull off Pastels

I'm currently quite isolated due to my illness and I'm thinking about past experiences with social seclusion that inadvertently prepared me for this.  When my mind is operational, I am never bored.  This is partially because, during my entire childhood and adolescence, I spent my summers on Nantucket where I had absolutely no friends. 

In the beginning it made sense I had no friends.  (I was socially awkward to the point of paralysis.) But, by middle school, I had actually developed social skills yet somehow my sense of humor didn't translate to the Nantucket crowd or, rather, the Nantucket Yacht Club crowd.  (I still couldn't pull off pastels.  I felt ridiculous in girlish prep attire and, well, it was a requirement.)  So, I learned how to occupy time with other things. I wrote horrible poetry, I wrote horrible stories, I put on one woman productions of my favorite musicals by myself which I performed.... to myself.  I learned how to play pop songs by blowing into an aperture I made with my hands, I became okay at the devils sticks and developed a bevy or other entirely useless skills.  I can actually make Nantucket lightship baskets... (To this day, if you gave me some cane, I could figure it out.)  At one point, I took up stunt kite flying.  I learned how to launch the kite by myself and, actually, I became somewhat adept.  Occasionally, I would fly my kite in a field outside my family's rental house and people would stop to admire my skills. Sometimes, we would engage in a short conversation about the kite.  Where did I purchase the kite?  Where did I learn how to fly it?  I told them about The Nantucket Kite Shop and the VHS stunt kite flying instructional video that came with the kite from The Nantucket Kite Shop; then they would go off on their way and leave me to the field.

That was usually my daily social interaction for the day.

I suppose I am actually happy about these summers I spent in social seclusion because it prepped me for my current isolation/disease. When my mind is operational, I am never bored. I do not fundamentally understand boredom. So thank you to all my former Nantucket peers who never liked me!

P.S. If you were friends with me in middle school, I believe I lied and said I had friends on Nantucket to create an illusion of a mysterious second life where I dated and engaged in illicit teenage activities. I think I also invented a pseudo boyfriend/love interest to deter anyone from thinking I was gay?  Anyway, this was all a lie to incease my social cache.  SORRY FRIENDS FROM MIDDLE SCHOOL.